Last Saturday for the month of March 2013.. pwehhhh why time flies very..very fast...getting older day by day... I'm really scared.. Have to think more deeply about my future...like it or not have to go to work in order to find money..money and money...to keep alive in this hectic world...Such a tiring day... There's always people will ask me something like
"Eh, sekarang ni Hang tak dak message2 dengan sapa2 ka?"
" Hang sekarang dengan sapa?"
" Awat break? Sekarang tak "kawan" dengan sapa2 ka?"
haha such a funny questions.. How am i gonna be or have someone else if i dont let anyone else in.. Like seriously i have no interested to go to that so called love-relationship.. Orang hantar chat pun tak reply.. reply sikit terus rasa bosan dan tak perlu..Nahh..! I'm not the type of person that can live without love from a guy..atau lebih senang kalau dikatakan tak boleh hidup kalau tak dak jantan.. yeah jantan tak diperlukan tetapi lelaki hehe.. Baru single terkalut2 mencari cinta lain... trust me u'll get into wrong relationship again.. I do understand somehow we have that feeling to show that we can get better.. to live happily.. Bear in mind that "Please fall in love when your heart is ready not when you are lonely".. Dont get into relationship just because all of our friends have boyfriend so we dont want to be that one weirdo that desperado...
I do understand at this age of 23 is the hot age.. Hot age? Yela tengok FB.. kawan tadika, kawan sekolah kawan mengaji... jiran2.. kawan apa lagi.. banyak yang dah into relationship yang halal aka kahwin..amin... Nasib baik tak emo2 sebab tengok banyak yang dah tunang and kahwin.. cuma teringin tapi takut terus tak mahu hahaha... Seriously takut gila.. So jadi andartu pun andartu la..boleh tara tu? Just because i got into stupid-wrong-sinful relationship before this I have this type of feeling.. cruel man... kata orang jodoh itu perlu dicari..so kena try banyak orang and get hurt for so many times? Kata orang jugak kalau dah ada jodoh tak kemana.. Ada jodoh ada la.. jadi tunggu ja? Ustaz Don cakap jaga relationship kita dengan Allah, Allah akan bagi yang baik2 untuk kita.. Banyak prinsip2 pasal jodoh dan cinta yang sangat memeningkan.. So sebab keliru2 jadi lebih baik tak payah fikir..sebab memang dah tahu susah nak cari lelaki yang ikut demand aku..sebab tak wujud pun lelaki yang macam itu.. So biar lah kalau orang kata apa pun selagi tak kutemui lelaki yang macam itu aq single terus..terusan hahaha jadi hati sila jangan jatuh cinta pada lelaki yang pelik2..
Sometimes i got so confused to see the love relationship around me.. sometimes the guy is the kind of jerk and sudah terang lagi bersuluh tahap "ketidaklayakan" jadi seorang suami tapi yang girl masih still stick together....is this what that so called love? yeah i guess so same goes to me previously.. now i can see in crystal clear how stupid i can be in my life.. Sometimes there's a couple where the guy go out flirt with other girl and the girl out flirt with other guy and still stick together... What is the meaning of love? Cinta tu harus diusahakan atau datang sendiri? For arrange married for sure there's no love in the beginning so we have to force our heart to fall for each other.. isnt love is something that cant be forced?
Meaning of love i still dont know so how come i want to get into relationship.. As long as i dont have these symptoms of "cemburu@meluat@menyampah tengok orang lain berpasangan", "Rasa sunyi..sepi", "Rasa tergugat" then there's no problem for me to stay single now or forever...sebab sekarang lebih bahagia.. hidup tak banyak dosa...hati tak sakit2 macam dulu..hati tak risau2 macam dulu.. dan paling penting tak kena tipu hidup2 macam dulu...Syukur Alhamdulillah Allah selamatkan dari terus hanyut..
